Small things. Even if you try your best

Last night, when he had a fight with his husband, he casually said, “Look at you, when you go to school, you don’t study hard, the school you took is not good, now you can only find such a tired job.”

I was stunned and said that I was the top ten in my class when I was a child. I have been studying very hard. How come to this day, I have become a poor learner in other people’s population?

I have two degrees. College Entrance Examination in Shandong Province.

Our city’s education is the penultimate in the province.

Our county’s education level is the penultimate in the city.

Our teachers have teachers who have taught for many years, and can not speak Mandarin clearly, including English teachers, junior high school teachers when preparing lessons the first day in the textbook Pinyin, the next day to teach us; there are students graduated from the second-class normal school every year, mainly undergraduate students.

The most common scene I have seen since childhood is that the teacher can not express what he wants to express on the platform, and the students meditate hard under the platform and do not know what the teacher wants to say. There is a rush on and off the stage.

Our high school has a Tsinghua or Peking University every five years. My college entrance examination in 2008, a total of more than 3,000 students, undergraduate online about 120 people, a book online about 30 people, this is only online, the final admission must be less than these numbers, because just the line must be submitted to the next level. The whole school went to Beihang first, and more than a dozen people went to Shanda, Petroleum, Haida, Shanwei and Shanshi, and dozens more were admitted to the second-class schools in the province. The remaining nearly 3,000 students are either employed or in Vocational and technical schools.

This is basically the case for years to come.

But it is such a school, such a rate of entrance, is also our high school star-wearing month study and examination. We get up at 5:30 in the morning, run, start self-study at 6:10 in the morning, have breakfast at 7:10 and start class at 7:30 in the morning, have class exercises in the morning, each person will take a small book to recite words and formulas while waiting in line for class exercises, have lunch and rest for about one and a half hours, have dinner less than an hour, and study at night can choose to go to 9:30 or 9:30 by oneself. At half past ten, all of us will choose half past ten. There are two days off a month, sometimes two weeks a day, sometimes four weeks a day. Teachers arrange classes every day to accompany students in the dormitory to supervise students’work and rest; there are many security guards at the entrance, and they are not allowed to leave the school during the non-school holidays. For special reasons, they need the approval of the head teacher to go out.

But when we take the college entrance examination, we should first put aside the unified proposition, the promotion line and other factors. We have to compete with the provincial key high school hegemony, Qingdao Yantai Weihai and other talented hegemony, to compete for those few places, we really can not compete.

Moreover, in the year of our college entrance examination, the whole province carried out quality education, taking out 60 points from the total score and setting up a “basic ability test”, which is similar to the common sense category of the civil service examination now. Those of us who have only studied hard for many years have died in this subject. The content of the exam is too much and too miscellaneous to accumulate in peacetime. It is too late to cram temporarily in the last year.

I think that in learning this matter, the school and we have made the best efforts, but there is no way. Everyone has different experiences, different talents, and different educational resources. In your opinion, it is a humiliating experience of life. It is precisely our hard work that we can barely reach it.

It’s not that we don’t work hard, it’s not that we don’t want to be better, it’s just that there are so many people in the world who can barely live an ordinary life even if they try their best.

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